Whoo Knew?

So i've come over all zen.

I don't know if it's because i've taken to only eating raw food, or if it's because i'm older, wiser, and more neurotic than ever, but i seem to have come into my own.

I just am happier. And more accepting of, not only the things that happen to me, but to the things that happen around me too (damn, is that from AA? Not that i go, not that it's bad if you do...).

It's as if i've awoken after a lifetime of sleep, into a world that shows some semblance of sense.

And where there isn't sense, there is clarity.

It seems, to quote a dear friend of mine, 'Everything Is Going To Be Okay'...

And thank god. Because for a moment there, it looked as if things were actually going to turn into the primordial soup from whenst they came.

Shit. Maybe this is middle age?

Don't get me wrong. I'm still eccentric and foolish. I still wear my heart proudly on my sleeve, and have my laundry in plain view for all to see... but for the most part, i'm just good.

And no matter what spanners are thrown into my works (that sounds weird!), i know i'm standing tall and capable of deflecting them, or accepting them, however big or small.

If someone could only explain how to bottle this mastery, and share it with my dull, grumpy, angry, lousy fellow humans, we'd all be better off.

Do it. Get happy dammit. I promise, it feels really good...